today I realised a few things

• I've been treading water for a few weeks, waiting for something that I no longer think will happen. And if that's the case, it's time to move on (and that's ok).
• Everything has limits (and that's ok).
• I am resilient. If there's one thing I would like to pass on to my children, I think resilience may be it.
• Eventually, when I hit enough locked doors, I get the message. Today I got the message (and that's ok).
• I don't need to make excuses for who I am and how I am. I just am. 
• I don't need to be who other people think I should be.
  
• I have no regrets. I did what seemed right with what experience and knowledge I had at the time, and it's pointless wishing I knew then what I know now.

It's been a good day.